黃燦然:在地鐵裏
2005-05-15 - 12:25 a.m.

在地鐵裏 黃燦然

這個十六七歲的少女,
得意地,那麼得意地
跟小男友親嘴、擁抱,
讓整個車廂都側目於
她輕易贏來的驕傲。

她健康的笑容,隱含
一團愚蠢,被一個中年男人
認真地思忖着,他在想
十年二十年後,這團愚蠢
將填滿她的臉,就像

他在同事、親友中間,
在街頭上和菜市場
看到的那些中年婦人
臉上那團擠不掉的愚蠢;
她的小男友將長大,

成為男人,跟她結婚,
游手好閒,或雄心勃勃,
她將給他生幾個孩子,
在吵鬧和埋怨中累積
臉上那團臃腫的愚蠢。

她挺起任性的小胸脯,
好像在說:「將來?
將來誰管!」她似乎已猜出
那中年男人是一個悶棍,一個
單身寡佬:一團障礙。

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跑步
2005-05-13 - 11:58 p.m.
這兩天終於放晴,我下班回家,急忙換運動裝到球場去。每當心有不安,或是有問題想不通,只要往球場裡跑幾圈,閉塞的思維就重新暢通,一切問題便會容易解決。

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留言板上說多了
2005-05-13 - 1:03 a.m.
留言板上說多了,沒精力經營今天的文章。請見諒。

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生病的同事
2005-05-10 - 10:17 p.m.
一個不熟悉的同事進了醫院。近來辦公室內早有流言,說他精神出了問題,行為越來越古怪。就如昨天,工作間的那些幸福太太,就說那位不熟悉的同事要成立自己的教會,到處叫人加入。我和那位同事工作沒關連,更沒有說上幾句話,所以就不能確定是真是假。直至今天那同事無故暈倒,大家就更肯定他有問題。

我工作的部門不大忙,但各人的處境、個性不同,沒有人知道為甚麼得出精神病。縱使談論的人不少,真正出手幫助的人屈指可數。關心和八卦,就是這樣一線相差。

自己剛巧做了兩個「心理測驗」,我應該沒甚麼問題吧。

Loneliness Quotient: 40%

Your Personalized Assessment Report:

An LQ score of 40 not the best, however it is still on the healthier side of the meter. This score is indicative of some problems that could be worked out, and we will take a closer look at specific areas of interest. You've got some difficulties with having friends that need improvement. This is one area you should work on. Thankfully, your family is not a source of loneliness for you. Sometimes family can put a strain on your life, but in your case things seem to be okay. Your romantic life is, however, not a pretty picture. Significant improvements need to be made in this area to combat your loneliness. Finding a girl who compliments you will greatly reduce your LQ. Luckily, shyness is not a setback for you, which makes resolving the sources of your loneliness easier. It's a shame that your area doesn't have a lot of like-minded people, which is one factor making it difficult to lower your LQ further. Finally, a bright spot for you is that you don't suffer any major insecurity issues. This fact helps keep your LQ lower than what it might have been.

Take the Loneliness Quotient Test at Dating Diversions


DisorderRating
Paranoid:Low
Schizoid:Moderate
Schizotypal:Moderate
Antisocial:Low
Borderline:Low
Histrionic:Low
Narcissistic:High
Avoidant:Low
Dependent:Low
Obsessive-Compulsive:Moderate

-- Personality Disorder Test --
-- Personality Disorder Information --

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